Shamelessly stolen from my friendslist...

Come Tell Me (Anonymously!) How Much You Love Me!

lol... work will most likely suck this week because of stupid jerk customers who seem to think that it's just fine to take tons of extra time deciding on something, then change their mind, when they've already HEARD us say we're suppose to be closed and can't as long as there's a line... and coworkers who don't LISTEN when I ask THREE TIMES for one of them to go close the gate... so... I could sue the pick me up... lol

I was gonna post this when I suddenly remember that i forgot to post a gift today, so I did that FIRST... lol

Anyway, I kinda... wanna write/make art of Ryan Atwood/Tyra Collette (The OC/Friday Night Lights)... I haven't even watched more than the first 3 eps of FNL (I own the first season on DVD, so I need to watch the entiore season), but... I wanna write/art them... lol

Maybe because I see tyra as being a girl who'd have no trouble telling off Marissa... and god knows I LOVE M being told off... lol...

I jsut found out my brother Seth IS COMING FOR CHRISTMAS! He's only gonna be here a week this time, from the 20th to the 27th, but... he's coming! WOOHOO! This may be my lats chance to see him for a couple years because after some additional training, they're sending him to be stationed in Japan, and obviously he's gonna wana spend his leave back in Hawaii with his girlfriend/unofficial fiancee...

But he's coming! WooHoo!

The OC/Gossip Girl.
Ryan/Chuck Slash.
Language.
Much Mocking of Seth.

( Beautiful World - Part Five )

Holy crap... this chapter? Is 9 pages long... 3,027 words... so far, the entire story is 32 pages/10,108 words... holy crap... lol

I'll be posting the first of the 24 Gifts of 2009 tonight!

Remember, for the 24 days, it's friends locked, but on Christmas Day (mid-day or evening most likely) I'll unlock for all to see and (hopefully) enjoy...

If you wanna be friended, just friend me... I FIANLLY got around to going and friending back people who've friended me over the last few weeks, and if anyone friends me this month, I'm gonna try extra hard to friend back within a day or two.

If you friended me recently, you're now friended back. If I missed you somehow (there's a handful of REALLY prolific communities that I'm a member of but don't have on my friends page because they'd swamp out everything else, so it's possible I accidentally skimmed over a person while not adding the comms...) just comment here and I'll add you.

But don't feel you gotta friend to rea,d because come Christmas Day (Boxing Day at the latest), I'll make all the gifts public.

Just posted the first in my new Dean/Faith universe to my dreamwidth.

This universe was originally gonna be humorous and fluffy, but... the more I thought on it, the mroe it evolved into something more angsty. Though still with humor planned.

Index Post

Saturday Night's Alright (SPN/BTVS - Dean/Faith)

Two Dean/Faith arts beneath the cut. The second one uses the manip from the first along with several other manips... The second one is also my current desk top wallpaper (in a larger version, of course... lol)

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Went to Cheyenne to shop today... I bought myself Season 2 of Gossip Girl, Season 3 of Supernatural, and season 2, 3, 4, 5, and 6 of One Tree Hill! So for OTH, I am now all caught up on every season that is out!

On the way there, and more on the way back, mama and I started talking and I started thinking about my ideal ending for SPN and how it would be that while the brothers still hunt bad stuff, they find love and ahve families... especially Dean... and who is my ideal significant other for Dean? Faith LeHane! I've got this whole idea about their lives together and I'm gonna write it as a series of stories chronicling their lives...

I think this series of stories, which for now I'm just referring to as 'The Happy Future Universe', will be the first storeis I post on my new Dreamwidth, because I want to post stuff and as I do make it all neat and orderly, with index pages for each universe of connected stories, and probably index posts by fandom...

So... last week, I bought seasons 1 and 2 of Eureka on DVD! I'm watching the pilot ep right now and omfg it's making me wanna work on Eureka!Ryan taking place during Ryan and Zoe's teen years... lol I need to figure out exact timeline placement for Ryan's arrival in Eureka, but with the 1st season at my fingertips, I can do that no problem... lol

I'm guessing that most likely, Eureka!Ryan begins shortly after 'Right As Raynes'... definitely before 'Purple Haze', because I want Ryan to be there when the inhibitions drop and things get crazy... I want him to lose his filter and tell someone that he's tired of being wanted around for what he can do and not for who he is. Tell someone that he wishes someone would want him around because they liked HIM, not for how he makes sure bills get paid and helps find veins (like Dawn did) or how he defends the weak and annoying (like Seth) or because he's an UberGenuis... Zoe was the first person to not give a crap about that stuff and just wanna hang out without wanting anything in return...

And... Ryan in the Future portrayed in 'Once In A Lifetime', where he's been adopted by Jack and Allison, and of course the first few eps after that, in Season 2 when Jack remembers the future and he behaves differently towards Ryan because he knows that Ryan becomes his son in the future and he wants to try and get Ryan to trust him sooner than he did originally because he wants Ryan to feel safe and loved...

Oh! And what dreams would Ryan have been having in 'Noche de Suenos'? What would people have seen? And the ep where everyone started getting dumb because of the organic chickens reducing gaba in their brains, especially since that was also Zane Donovan's first ep and omfg the 'criminal trifecta' of Zane, Ryan, and Zoe? lol... In my head, Ryan and Zane are good friends in Genuis!Ryan universe... like Zane ended up kind of filling the big brother role for Ryan, but without the jackass-ness of some of Trey's actions...

Yeah... I have much love for Eureka and Genuis!Ryan... lol

Have you ever wanted to ask me a question about one of my fanfics? Here is your chance to ask me anything you want!

Chose a story, any story, of mine and ask me anything, literally, anything and I will answer honestly. Even if it's spoiler-y for what's to come (Although for majorly spoiler-y ones, I'll give you a chance to back out, and then post a link to a post-dated entry with the answer, so no one will see the answer unless they wanna know)...

So! You can ask what inspired the story, or what was hardest to write in the story, or whether there will be a happy ending, literally anything and I will answer.

I'm working on some of my 24 Gifts Of 2009 right now, and earlier today I made the cover graphic for a FicMix... It's very much still a Work In Progress, no textures or anything special done, just the basic graphic, with a layer of pink-ish color over it, and the working title of the mix added... but I felt like sharing... it'll look different/better once textured...

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I'm posting from my laptop again!

It was mildly irritating to have to go through the hassle of re-installing my router to the laptop (I know I'm phrasing that weird/bad/wrong, but I mean making it so I have wireless on the laptop using my own network... lol), but at least this time I had a clue what I was doing so it's all good... lol

I put a bunch of stuff, including my NaNo (which I'm now like 4 days behind on) onto my flashdrive so i can get them on here... and the laptop now has the same virus protection that the University uses, so I think I'll be nicely protected...

Speaking of NaNo... I doubt I'll manage to hit 50k words before the end of November, but... I did a LOT better than I did last year, and now I'm sure that with a little more planning (instead of deciding to do it and picking a plot on October 29th) I CAN do it next year. I'm still gonna try to finish the story, but... I'm not gonna put a lot of pressure on myself. Especially since I've been so exhausted lately and now I'm kinda sick (throats been hurting for 2 days... bah)...

Anyway, laptop is back and working, so... YAY!

Good News/Bad News kinda situation...

The Good News? I'll most likely have my laptop back, and working, by the weekend Possibly tonight, more likely sometime tomorrow.

The Bad News? They're gonna have to wipe it (erasing all my stuff) and reinstall windows because it's malware that fucked it up. So I'm gonna lose 9GB of music... BUT! I was smart and when I managed to get it up in Safe Mode With Networking, I uploaded the crucial songs, the ones that if I lost them I'd either never find again or have to pay to get off Amazon, to Mediafire, so I'll still have those. And I'm a member of some music communities, have links to other sites/communites/blogs for music, so I CAN recover most of it... it'll just take some time...

Now would be a good time for you guys to rec some music for me! What band do you think I've GOTTA check out? Is there a band that you hate except for one song? Is there a totally awesome cover song out there that you love? I'm obsessed with covers songs, so... yeah.... lol

Once I get some of my music collection back, I'll make a post reccing my favorites to you guys, including explaining WHY they're my favorites...

So...

I guess it's having Jonathan Jackson back on General Hospital as Lucky, but I've been working on my old GH fic 'The Ties That Bind' (loving referred to as TTTB form here on out... lol) again...

This fic has basically been my enver ending baby for YEARS now... I think I started it in '02 or '03. almost certainly when Jacob Young was playing Lucky because I was so disillusioned by the JY Lucky (while Greg vaughn made me love Lucky again)... Thing is, this fic is at 103 chapters (I'm almost done writing 103 in fact!), and it is nowhere near finished. There's still this HUGE amount of stuff I want to have happen... I kinda want this fic to go on forever... lol...

TTTB has had so many twists and turns, not all of them good... Lucky discovering he was actually a Cassadine, Mikkos' return fromt he dead, Emily being kidnapped while pregnant... Leo's brush with death right after being born... Carly throwing her stiletto at a bad guy... Lila's death...

This fic once consumed me, and I think it could again, even though pretty much no one on my friends list is a GH fan... hell, I don't think anyone on my FList but Bri and Becca are Soap fans at all... lol

However... me being crazy, I keep wanting to bring more fandoms into this fic... I already included ER (Drs. Lewis and Carter did a couple months in Port Charles, New York, as part of the Doctors Exchange program), but there's so many other options... I mean, One Life To Live is an obvious choice... I'd love for Rex to somehow get tied up in the Penthouse goings on... maybe he and Lucky were friends for a short time while the Spencers were on the run... or Dorian enters into a business deal with ELQ... since TTTB is several years behind real time (it's only like 2001 or 2002 in TTTB), maybe when jessica's alter Tess emerges, she ends up in PC and falls for Jason...

Or what about Days Of Our Lives? Bo and Hope get jobes working for the PCPD and move to town with their son Shawn... they soon become deeply invovled in the Penthosue goings on, maybe because Shawn is kidnapped by Helena as revenge for the death of an old family friend, Stefano, and Bo and Hope end up going to the local WSB for help getting him back... Maybe they wind up beign recruited as another source within the PCPD to help keep Sonny and Jason out of jail and in charge of the PC Mob...

How about Guiding Light? Alan Spaulding and Edward Quartermaine would so be old friends, maybe Alan Q (Edward's son) was named after Alan S... and I would LOVE for Gus Aitoro to actually be a WSB agent, but he was posing as an FBI agent while on a deep cover assignment in Springfield... and maybe Lizzie S and Emily hung out at a spa once upon a time not long after Em was adopted by the Q's, and Lizzie S gave Emily tips on being a rich girl...

And then there's a somewhat obvious one... a GH character who has a decent sized role in TTTB is Alexis DAVIS. Maybe she's somehow related to Brooke DAVIS of One Tree Hill. Since Davis was Alexis' mother's name, maybe Brooke's dad is the nephew, or even younger brother of Alexis' mother, making them cousins? And after Brooke has a pregnancy scare in Tree Hill, her father sends her to her cousin to get her away from bad influences, not realizing the dangers of Port Charles are worse? Cue a Maxie Jones/Lucas Jones/Brooke Davis triangle! (Maxie and Lucas are cousins by ADOPTION only, Lucas' adoptive father is the brother of Maxie's biological father... on the actual soap, Lucas came out as gay a few years back, but I was writing Maxie/Lucas flirtation LONG before that happened, so... Maxie/Lucas pairing! lol)...

::sigh:: I'm crazy, I admit it. But this randomness? Is better than freaking out and stressing...

I'm currently over 3,000 words behind. If I want to catch up, I need to get almsot 5,000 words written by the end of tomorrow. At leats I'll be home by like 1:30 tomorrow, so more time to work.

Todya was my first tuesday working at 3pm. It would have been fine, except the girl who was SUPPOSE to be there at like 2 or something, never showed. One of my fellow front-liners had to leave at 2. The other one left at about 2:30. I was alone until 3. And we had a nonstop flow of customers. There were TWO guys in the cooking area, and msot of the time they weren't doing ANYTHING, just standing around WHISTLING while I ran back and forth from one end of the counter to the other trying to help the LINE of customers. One of them helepd for like 2 or 3 minute,s at which time he went to cook soemthing and said "Can you get these guys?" as though I'd been standing around doing jack shit (or, I don't know, like I had been WHISTLING while HE ran around by himself?). Pissed me off royally.

I couldn't stand to stay in that building when I finally got off work at 3, partially because if one of my bosses saw me and asked why I looked upset, I would have told them EXACTLY why and I'm not sure that would have been good... anyway, I walked down to K-mart and Hastings, and I splurged. At K-Mart I bought myself these ADORABLE flannel pajamas that are white, with pink tone4d stacks of books with cats sitting ont he stacks... so cute... and I don't even like pink! Then I went to Hastings and I found the 2-Disc Special Edition of Star Trek for $25 bucks, and sicne mama and I loved hte movie and both wanted it, I bought it... Season One of Eureka and Season One of Brothers & Sisters were also both on sale for $25 bucks each, so I bought them too. On Thanksgiving? Mama and I are thinking of having our own Eureka Marathon... lol

Bah. Hopefully I can get SOMETHING of quality written/arted tonight so I don't feel like a complete failure at life... lol

For the first time, I'm behind in NaNo.

Yesterday, I was out of town most of the day, and when we got home I got online to check email, then got off the computer for a while because I figured I'd maybe nap and then feel refreshed enough to work on NaNo... instead, I fell asleep on the couch at about 9:00pm and slept straight through until about 12:30am... by then , I didn't feel like tryign to write, so I jsut went to bed... today I felt kinda crappy, and then went out to the Library Book Sale Bag Day (Paper grocery bag full of books for 4 bucks... I ended up with two bags and enough books that it worked out to about 11 cents per books)...

I finally got on about an hour ago and wrote like 762 words, and I'm so... gah... feeling... so I'm like 2,421 words behind... I can catch up, I know I can... especially since tomorrow I get off work at 1 and get to come right home after, so... I can work on it all afternoon...

1. I dropped off my laptop to get it fixed today. They said they probably won't be able to get to it until Monday afternoon, but since it's almost useless right now, I can deal with that, no problem.

2. Major snow today. Like I woke up to the ground being snow covered, it snowed most of the day, so much that I changed my mind about haivng Mama drop me at the shopping center with K-Mart/Safeway/Hastings before she went back to work after her lunch, and yet now? it's bright and sunny out. The good part is, even though I pissed that now i don't have soda for the weekend or cotton candy (I'd planned on buying both in the little shopping center), we're mroe likely to be able to go down to Ft. Collins to see my Brother, sister-in-law, and The Cuteness (AKA my nephew, Liam).

3. I've talked about him tons, so I thought it was time I finally shared a pic of Liam. He's 11 months old (He turns 1 on December 6th!) and there is a reason I refer to him as 'The Cuteness'... we actually have the bigger version (I cropped this one and made it smaller) as our desktop wallpaper... lol



Do you see why I call him 'The Cuteness'? Adorable yes? And he is SOOO sweet! O really wanna see him tomorrow!

So.

I jsut made a call to a local computer repair place, and I'm gonna take my laptop into them tomorrow afternoon. I know I could get it fixed for free from Dell, but... I'd rather pay money for local work and not have to deal with the hassle of mailing it back to Dell, then worrying about something happening to it on route. For me, it balances out.

The guy on the phone told me they probably wouldn't even be able to actually look at it until Monday, but since they are a first come first serve place, I'll be ahead of all the people who break theirs over the weekend and bring them in on Mondays.

Maybe I'll luck out and it won't be too expensive to fix, and they'll be able to get it fixed relatively quickly, too.

I would LOVE to be able to finish NaNo on my Laptop.

I'm stuck in the Student Union until 5 because mom and i are gonne go pick up dinner after work... and I expected to work until 3:30, but my boss let me leave early... I think because I looked about to snap... the fun of being short staffed and havign a migraine rising... bah...

I'm feeling more 'zen' now. Relaxed, calm.

I jsut wish our internet on the desktop had been working this morning, because I'd planned to save the latest chapter of 'Beautiful World' into a hotmail draft so I could work on it this afternoon while killing time... but our internet wasn't working, so... there went that plan... lol...

Oh well, I'll read fanfic, maybe write something else a bit...

Another drive-by chapter posting hurriedly before work. This time I think I caught all typos... lol... this one pretty much establishes where things are going in general... I need a Chuck/Ryan icon... lol

Enjoy!

( Beautiful World - Part Four )

On a different note... I'm starting to try and piece together a soundtrack for this story. I've got a couple good ones already... most of the songs will be Chuck/Ryan related, but some will relate to Ryan and the Cohens, Ryan and his newfound family, etc... If nothing else, it'll end up being one of my 24 Gifts for 2009... if you guys can think of any fitting songs, feel free to tell me!

Okay guys, there is seriously not much that scares me. Like there's exactly three things in the world that will make me momentarily freeze up.

The first is heights. I can handle anything up to about 10 feet without too much trouble. Get me much high than that and I kinda start getting freaked. Which is odd since I LOVE rock climbing. I'm always fine as long as I'm facing the rocks, it's if I look down that I freak, even if I KNOW I'm really high up. I think this relates to the time I fell like 4 or 5 feet onto a tile floor and hurt my back. I was like 4 years old and was in so much pain for the first hour or so that I could barely move. I still have a bad back 22 years later.

The second is bees/wasps/hornets. Basically, any insect with a stinger, but bees are most common around here. I've beens tung once in my life, and the site around the sting swelled up greatly so I'm kinda scared of what would happen if I got stung somewhere that it got into my bloodstream really fast. So I see bees? I freeze and freak until they aren't buzzing around me.

The third one, which si alsot he worst? Spiders. I'm terrified of spiders, no matter how tiny they are. It's not a problem if they're on TV or in a container they can't get out of. I think Tarantulas are so cool to look out, when there's glass between them and me. But if a tiny spider is near me without anything between us? I freak. I jsut spent about 2 or 3 minutes standing and staring at a little tiny spider that was dangling from a strand of web in the middle of our living room before I was able to make myself grab a tissue, scoop it up, and shake it out the door to get rid of it. I won't kill spiders unless I have to, but omfg I'm not gonna leave one in the house if I have the option of tossing it outside.

The spiders one is the only one I don't have a rational explaination for. I don't know WHY I'm so terrified of them, just that I am.

Yeah... just felt like sharing my neurosis... lol