More Darkness inspired by a pic.

Warnings for sexual abuse/rape, violence, language, and severe angst. I don't think it's overly graphic, but... I think it's pretty obvious what's been/being done.

( Three Years )

So, I intended to write a happy little piece as a brief distraction from the angst of a new fic I'm working on (but don't plan to post until all 3 stories in the little trilogy universe are done... or at least 2 of them are so I have a huge backlog to post while working on the final story... lol)... but as I looked through my 'Inspiration Pics' folder on photobucket, I saw one that at first glance could have been happy, but... I made it sad... the pic is behind the cut, along with a nice, angsty little story. With no actually dialogue at all... lol

Warning: Veyr much Anti-Marissa.

( Blue Elephant )

I feel like making art... I made, what I feel is, an awesome banner the other night for a fic, but it's a fic I don't plan on posting until it's finished and the banner is slightly spoiler-y so... yeah, can't post...

But that makes me wanna make arts. So, anyone have a request? Any show, any pairing... although preferably shows I'm familiar with (take look at my tags... if it's listed in the 'Fandom:*' section, I know it... lol, but if I've talked about it and it doesn't have a tag, that's fine too) will be much easier for me to do...

Alternatively? Give me a 'genre' (angsty, happy, funny, etc) and I'll make some sort of image reflecting that feel...

Anyone remember 4 Girls Who Could be Ryan Atwood's Soulmate that I posted a while back? Joan Girardi, Rose Tyler, Claudia Kishi, and Blair Waldorf? Well, lately I've kinda been wanting to write about Ryan and Claudia's first date, babysitting for Sophie Rose... and it's so tempting to AU The OC a bit by having Marissa alive and when Marissa and Claudie meet, Marissa is all bitchy about Claudia's fashion style, and Claudia responds with some cutting remarks about Marissa's fashion choices and Marissa is all outraged...

And I want Ryan to go to Stoneybrook and meet the rest of the former BSC...

And... and... yeah.

That is all, i must get back to work...

I had this bizare idea just cross my mind...

Caleb Nichols/Karen Roe (The OC/One Tree Hill) pairing...

Yeah.


In slightly less bizarreness...

Take the characters of The OC, One Tree Hill, and Gilmore Girls, and put them in the basic storyline of 'Hidden Palms'... Ryan moves to a new town with his mom (Kirsten) and new stepdad (Sandy) and stepbrother (Seth), following his release from rehab for drug and alchohol abuse that culminated in a suicide attempt. Soon, Ryan discovers that beneath the idyllic surface, his new home holds some dark secrets, including a mystery that he sets out to solve, even though it could put his life in danger.

Still bizarre, right? lol...

So... I added the first seaosn of 'Road To Avonlea' to out Netflix and got the 1st disc today... I sjut finished watching the pilot episode "The Journey Begins" and I had forgotten so many things... like that Hetty was a raging bitch, but still loveable... and Felicity was so stuck up, even as she called Sarah stuck up... and Sarah was kind of annoying, but Sarah Polley, who played her, is absolutely awesome because you still wanna love Sarah and hug her... lol

But Felicity always was and always will be my favporite... I can't wait till I get to all the good Felicity/Gus stuff, because I ADORED them! They are HistoricalEpic!Love! lol

I'm crazy though, because I've got this hilarious mental image of a The OC/OTH historical AU using the plot of Road To Avonlea... Ryan as Gus (the poor vagabond of sorts who's charming, but a bit of a troublemaker), Brooke as Felicity (snotty at times, but still loveable), Marissa as Sarah (stuck up rich girl who doesn't want to be in the simply little village)...

Yeah, told you, crazy... but it's a fleeting idea, because I'm completely deep in my new fic, which probably won't be posted until I finish it due to the way the story is told... lol

The OC/Tin Man crossover... Ryan/DG pairing...

Just the mental image of Ryan in The O.Z. makes me grin...

Hell... I'd proibably simply callt he universe 'The OZ' to take advantage of that humor... :D



In other news... I'm browsing DeviantArt to find interesting arts to inspire me... lol... There's some amazing ones, but they inspire original stuff, not anything you guys might really wanna read...

Tough, though. I may post some original stuff sometime soon. Read if you want, don't if you don't. Up to you.

I splurged at Walmart... paid like $129.45 and got 10 different shows... less really sicne I also bought a couple other things...

Well, ten different season of shows... all first seasons, too... lol...

Bones - Season One
Dark Angel - Season One
Gossip Girl - Season One
Hill Street Blues - Season One
The Magnificent Seven - Season One
St. Elsewhere - Season One
Saving Grace - Season One
The Secret Life Of The American Teenager - Season One
Tru Calling - Season One
The Younger Riders - Season One

Most of them were packaged in sets of two... so like The Magnificent Seven/The Young Riders were packaged together, Tru Calling/Dark Angel, Saving Grace/Bones, Hill Street Blues/St. Elsewhere... and then I grabbed Gossip Girl and The Secret Life, too... HSB and StE are favorites of my mom's, and I like St. Elsewhere (what little I've actually managed to see of it) and she keeps saying she thinks I'd like Hill Street Blues... and then I ADORE The Young Riders (The cast! Stephen Baldwin and Josh Brolin were there from the beginning, Don Franklin joined in Season 2, which I will have to get at some point... lol), and The Magnificent Seven has always looked like it was an interesting show (Again! The Cast! Michael Biehn, Ron Perlman, and Eric Close!)

My mom told me she'd been interested in Savign grace, but missed so much of the early eps she wasn't sure she could get into it now, so gettingt he 1st season of it is perfect... For me the same is true of The Secret Life, it looked interesting, but when it premiered there was something else I was usualy watching and I could never catch it... Everything else is pretty obvious about why I got it... I love Dark Angel and already had Season Two... I adore Eliza Dushku so Tru Calling was too good to pass up... Gossip Girl, must I really say it? And Bones I love and adore...

But yeah... I splurged... lol

Or more accurately, some of the wacky ways my mind wants to crossover fandoms... mostly Criminal minds and Numb3rs related...

( Cut for Mild Insanity... Or Maybe Not So Mild... )

Yeah... insanity...

So... I'm bored. Really bored. My muses are kinda... not talking... their sulking in a corner and I don't know why...

Anyway... behind this first cut is an updated list of the Shows/Seasons I have on DVD. I'm up to 31! I didn't include the info of what eps on what discs, but... if anyone wants to look at episode guides and pick an ep from one of these for me to write a fic inspired by (Almost definitely in a different fandom, most likely The OC fic... lol), I'll do my best.

( The Updated Complete List )

I do plan on updating my original Complete List entry with all the sets in Alphabetical order and with the disc numbers and episode titles included, at some point, but this is the quick version, since I gotta type it all out... lol

(Edit: I bought two more shows on Saturday, Boomtown (Season One) and ER (Season One), so I've added them now.)

Remember the universe where Jack O'Neill is travelling with a mute Ryan Atwood towards Stargate Command and Ryan is kinda crazy as well as mute, and O'Neill flat out refuses to refer to the walking, rotting, dead as 'zombies' because this isn't some bad horror movie or even good Romero horror? Yeah, this continues that universe.

Stories In The 'Verse:
He Refused To Call Them Zombies. - An experiment at writing humorous Apocafic. I think it turned out well. In which O'Neill has stupidly spent weeks travelling with a mute teenager who's name he never bothered to find out, and Ryan practices his grafitti technique.
Been Getting A Little Too Evil Overlord For Our Tastes. - Continues the story with Ryan and O'Neill arriving at Cheyenne Mountain, and Ryan shows a slightly crazy side with Woolsey and his guards, while O'Neill calls him a stray dog.


( I'm sure our odds of survival just went through the roof. )

Oh! I jsut realized i have an excuse to use my "Apocalypse - Zombies" icon! lol

A while back, I posted a 'Lyrically Tragic' series of ficlets all based on song lyrics. #8 was this one was the last one, i don't remember how, but I remember blood and rain, in which Ryan and Kirsten were in a car accident and Ryan's leg had to be amputated. This is set in that universe.

I didn't really intend for this to be a crossover, then I started typing and Ray Barnett (of ER, played by Shane West) was there. And I love Ray, and I'm sure he'd be willing/able to help Ryan out in this situation...

Let's just say he was there for a conference of something and checking out the facilities... or something.

( Amputee!Ryan )

I just wanted to post SOMETHING, since it's been a while since I posted fic...

Last year I posted about how the muses ran away from home and I had this method for getting them back that involved putting together a random list of actors and actresses and creating a cast list for a show using them... You guys rocked and gave me TONS (like 40 or so) and the method worked, my muses came back!

I think the reason this seems to work for me is that there's no pressure to have anyone be 'in character' while in a crazy situation... they're original characters, so they can act however the damn hell I want them to act... lol

Anyway, I'm trying again... I've written a few things lately, but... nothing I really liked... I'm stuck on everything and I need to get my creative juices flowing...

SO! Give me the names of some actors and actresses!

Also? While I don't want specifics, if there's a kinda storyline you'd like to see them used for (serial killer on the lose, disaster strikes, car accident, medical problems, mental illness, bad guy, etc) include it next to their names and I will try to accomadate...

Thanks in advance!

My CD Player, which i bought second ahdn for like 2 bucks, has been slowly dying on me the last few weeks.... probably because I dropped it a while back... anyway, when I spent five minutes smacking the damn thing just to get it to play (and I still couldn't read the display because like half the little bars that form the numbers refused to show up) and my hand was seriously hurting, I finally said 'The hell with it!" and walked down to Kmart, where I bought myself this nifty little $30 buck MP3 player that's meant for like pre-teens/teens so while it doesn't have an ungodly amount of space, it has a huge amount (1 GB, which is like tiny compared to the size of my music collection... lol) and it's really simple to install the softwar ande I like the interface so far...

The first playlist I'm making is starting with the base Leaving Normal mix I had on a CD in my player today, but I'm adding in all the songs I'd had to cut to make it fit on the disc... lol...

Then I think I'll put on some of my other 'inspiring' mixes...

Anyway, I very much like my nifty new little player... and I plunked down the extra couple bucks for the 1 year replacement thing, so if it messes up on me, I can get it replaced...

Behind the cut are 8, count them EIGHT new manips. Most were made using Roswell pics as the base images (Because I'm on a 'Leaving Normal' kick right now), and one was made using a 'Sarah Connor Chronicles' still as the base. They can basically be considered LN pics, although two of the Ryan/Brooke ones could easily be used elsewhere... I'm not saying they're perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I really like how most of them turned out.

I put them in somewhat ascending order, the lower you go, the mroe I like the images... lol...

( Click For The Manips )

Messing around with Paint.NET, made some art... the original project dimensions are for a wallpaper for my screen resolution (1440x900), but I saved it smaller to show off... I can save it in other sizes if anyone wants, and since i have it saved as a project, I can remove the text... I'm thinking I want other text on it, like lyrics or something, but I can't decide WHAT so I went with the series title and their names... for now anyway... lol

( Cut For Image )

Opinions? Suggests for different ext/song lyrics/whatever?

How is that better than just blanking out the 'objectionable' phrase? I swear...

My mom and I jsut watched Snakes On A Plane on FX, and the subject line was the substitute for the Samuel L. Jackson line that I think EVERYONE has probably heard.

And then a little later came a gem about the "money fueler" plane... yeah...

We liked the movie, thought it was entertaining in it's ridiculousness... loved the very last couple of moments between Sean and Flynn... I'm in love with Flynn/Claire pairing... lol...

Yeah, that is all... I just had to share the ridiculous dubbed lines...

For the new movie, I mean... I don't know what kinda plot I'd use, or even which characters it would be about... but damn it, I wanna write for it! lol

It's really word because I have serious issues was Kirk in TOS and the movies, I never particularly liked him, in fact I often couldn't stand him. But Kirk from the new movie... I love. Maybe because Shatner's Kirk quite often seemed to get all thec redit and glory for the days saved, but really everyone else did the hard work, while Pine's Kirk actually did the work to deserve the credit... and you could see the ( Cut for minor spoiler )... so, yeah... I like Pine's Kirk, despite disliking/sometimes hating Shatner's Kirk.

( More spoilers, a bit more major this time )


Also? On a different topic? Teen/Pre-Teen Boys are MORONS! I'm at the union Internet computers and there's two of them finding it HILARIOUS to sign up for a dating thing as 'Male seeking male', as an asian man... and they apparently think that if they put the birthdate 1988? It means they'll be 30! And first 1998 would be 20, and then it would be 15/16... ow... my brain/hope for humanity just died a little...

Lunch breka is running out, gotta go, will post again later, maybe with fic...

I just got back form seeing Star Trek in the theater! I haven't seen a movie in the theater since... uh... Lion King... in 1994... lol...

But last Thursday, I said to my mom that, since I was gonna have Monday and Tuesday of this week off, maybe we could go to see Star Trek... and since the local theater turned out to have a Tuesday Special where you can get 2 movie tickets, 2 medium drinks, and a large popcorn for $25, so... we went!

And my opinion? Which is shared with my mom (who watched Original Trek with HER mom when it was originally airing)? Is that it freakin' rocked!

Yes, it breaks from traditional canon, but they did it in a brilliant way and I loved all the little details! The classic lines being used ("I'm a doctor, not a...!" and "I'm givin' her all she's got!" and Chekov's V's=W's... and of course "Live Long and Prosper")... I can even totally live with Winona Ryder as Amanda Grayson... her role was small (in terms of screen time) but she did a good job, I think... I was most doubtful about her, but... I think it worked.

Within the first 15 minutes, I said to my mom that I'm still keeping it on netflix to get as soon as it's out on DVD... but by a half hour/45 minutes in? I was telling her "Forget netflixing it. When this sucker comes out on DVD? I'm buying it ASAP!" She agreed enough to say she'll split the cost with me... we both agreed that if it was on DVD and we could watch it again immediately tonight? We would.

I know not everyone agrees that it rocked, but... we loved it.

I may post a more indepth, spoiler heavy post later, right now? I'm kinda still too hyped... (Edit: Spoilers In Comments!

I'm such a huge Star Trek Nerd that I sorta... umm... taped my ticket stub to the wall by my bed... yes, feel free to mock... lol

(I'm expecting it from my RL coworker, K, if she sees this... lol)

PS? People are getting Star Trek images for icons somewhere... anyone know where? lol... I know where to get posed images of Kirk and Spock, and pics of the cast in regular clothes, but people have like stills cropped into icons...? Where from? Anyone know?

So, I've still got room for another 43 icons... anyone have any suggestions? Either specific Icons (only ones gankable, please! Not some random person's icon!), or websites that have Icons, or suggest a fandom/couple/character I should get an icon of... just make suggestions!

Also, if there's an icon I have that you think I should get rid of (it's boring, I've had it forever, I have too many of a certain type, etc) let me know and I'll consider switching that one out...

You can view all my current icons User Pics.

And hell, if you're curious about a specific icon (who the people in it are, why I currently have it up, is there a specific story to it, and in the case of the ones labelled 'manip by me' there me be a larger version available on request), just ask and I shall give answers. I'm a firm believer that people's icon choices are very telling about them, but I have no idea what my choices say about me... lol

the music box won't let me put it all... I'm still at the union because it's raining out so no way am I walking home, and some idiot a couple computers down is talking on their cell phone about some pretty intimate details about their lives! And I cna hear them OVER MY MUSIC! Even with the volume turned up as loud as I can get it without risking hearing damage, I cna still hear them!